Christian was born at 2:30 in the morning. He was an unplanned pregnancy between unwed parents. I can never say I regret his coming but it has left me sadder and wiser.

I have had a unique experience since his death. I am a spiritual person who deeply believes in God and His love. I could not understand why this child was taken from our family where he would have been loved. I was grieving deeply. I had a unique experience after his death which tells me that he lives on. I was told by a person that she had a message from Christian...that he liked the Reeboks better. No one but his mother and I knew that we had looked at Reeboks shortly before he was born and that we thought the precious, but costly, little shoes were more than we could afford. I bought him another pair of baby Nikes at a garage sale. They still sit in my closet...a reminder of a little boy who in some way appears to know his Grammy loves him.